Pyro's Yard v2.0

Future plans: Adventure Racing - Hebridean Challenge, Rat Race, possibly Ace Race October, possibly Hellrunner, possibly XA 36 hour, possibly Endurancelife Coast-to-Coast. Kayaking - Dee and Tyne Tours, November. Running - possibly Harriers Ingleborough race Working - Work at YHA Dentdale until September. Then work something out. Money - get a pay cheque every month 'til September. Then start worrying. Love & all that gubbins - Would be nice at some point, but no firm plans as yet. Music - Keep playing and writing. Maybe try and get some gigs at some point.

I told you there was a reason... 

Well, this is supposed to be a diary so I'll talk like it is. Life, eh? Life at the moment consists of the following: cooking, cleaning, eating, sleeping (although not very much), training and worrying. There may also be the the odd spell of drinking and some kissing involved. It's the training that's worrying me. I always used to just 'go out on my bike'. Now I 'train'. I don't consciously push myself harder when I ride/run/paddle, but I notice myself sometimes attacking that hill just a bit harder, sprinting faster for that ball, etc etc ad nauseaum.. Why? I have no personal motivation, however, I do have a big fear of letting the team down. Always have. that's why I pushed myself at rugby, at kayak polo, and why I love adventure racing: I get to do all the sports I love for recreation, and I get to push myself for other people's sakes. Heb Challenge is going to be the longest race, both in duration and distance, that I have comp...